Having Yucky Thoughts...and what to do about them
About the fourth week, I was starting to bore myself!
After my experience of “visiting” with Alex on the beach (when I was down seeing Tamara and Michael), I came home and hit a real downer. I didn’t have the desire or energy to do anything. I didn’t even feel like writing anything for my blog.
What’s a person to do when that happens? I’m a great believer in “going with” whatever feelings or emotions I’m experiencing because I never know where they will lead me.
Therefore, I sunk into my yucky thoughts and feelings. I reveled in them! I barely saw anyone, nor did I talk to anyone, if I could help it. That’s fairly easy to do when you live alone. :-)
Mind you, I had a ton of conversations in my head, which I’m thankful for the fact that no one else could hear. I tried to tell my doggie Ty how awful I was feeling. He looked at me with his big brown eyes and yawned!
About the fourth week, I was starting to bore myself! After a series of pep talks with myself, I slowly started to feel human again.
Then I hit upon a solution. I was going to do something new and different (for me). I am going to join an online dating service!
I got all excited and went online, only to discover a major stumbling block – how do I describe myself?
It seems a great many people love “taking long walks on the beach,” and various other activities (that most people like to do). I don’t want to be like the rest of the crowd.
After fretting about that for a while, I finally put my thinking cap on, and came up with the following:
I’m 70 years of age (I’m not over the hill yet!), a widow, and I have a gorgeous dog named Ty.
Also, I have a blog:
On Becoming... an Outrageous Old Broad
As for writing anything else about myself, I’m stumped. I mentioned the only description (of myself) that I could come up with, to several friends, and each one I’ve asked has responded with the same answer: “Go for it. Try it and see what happens!” So, that’s what I’m going to do!
Wish me luck!
